Today, I am low, so very low.

From my title, I guess you know how I'm feeling. I had chocolate and that didn't work. I cleaned the kitchen, that didn't work either. I think sex might help but I'm not in the mood. I owe too much money to too many people. The "Credit Crunch" is killing me slowly, demoralising me quite quickly, and no-one can help me. I need a lot of money to pay off landlord, parents, catch up with bills, and I need to eat at some point too!!
I got a spam mail from some Born-Again Christian, offering me a cut of £2.5million if I believed in God. I don't. Not her God anyway, but it was tempting. Then I looked up debt advice online, and realised that I can do this. I can beat it, get passed it. I have thought about different ways to get out of debt, but none have been helpful. I even contemplated suicide because it would get me out of this mess. But then I'd lose Matt, the cats, our future. Everything. If I keep going, get help, I can be debt free in no time, providing I get a job. That's what bugs me. I need a job but no-one wants me. It drags me right down, knowing that they can employ me and save me but no-one cares.
I can do any job if I put my mind to it. Maybe not a driving job, unless they can teach me and get me a license (fingers crossed in false hope...)! I can type, I can use a phone, I can even get a coffee order if I'll get paid for it! Every day the problem gets bigger, and I feel smaller as I can do nothing but wait for a job to come along. It's depressing, it's shameful and it's killing me. Someone help me, please, before I drown.